Hey guys! I know this is technically releasing on a Monday because of how late it is, but we’re going to pretend that it’s still Sunday… Today has felt long and short at the same time, mostly because I spent the majority of the day at church, and the other part of it catching some much needed Zs. Also, reading. But it’s time to put all that aside and get to our verse for the week. Check it out!
A heart at peace gives life to the body, but envy rots the bones. – Proverbs 14:30
So my bestie and I (Kay Adelin (who used to be Christian Girl Writes)), started doing this thing where we share some of what we took from our Bible time every day (which is amazing for accountability and such), and this was a verse I did a couple days ago (or was it yesterday? I have no sense of time since I’m still on break from school). This one speaks to me because from personal experience, it’s incredibly true. When I was younger, I had a big jealousy problem. It changed as I got older, but I was miserable because of it. I would be jealous of people because they were prettier than me, or they were more popular and had more friends, because they had talents I wanted. The worst was when I was jealous of someone because I felt they were better than me, and I would try so hard to be like them. I realize now that I never had to do that, and I’m still suffering the repercussions. I find it incredibly difficult to be myself even though I want to be, because I just literally don’t even know who that is sometimes thanks to working for years to be someone else. Another thing I envied was the relationships people I knew had. My friends were dating, getting married, etc. I was jealous because they had everything I could only dream of. So while I was busy acting like someone I wasn’t and getting angry because I was still single, I was falling apart on the inside. I was completely miserable. Envy rotted me.
Luckily I snapped out of it a couple years into college. I learned to trust that whatever God gave me was what I needed, and there was nothing in the world to be jealous of. It took me a while to break my habit of jealousy. Again, I’m still working on everything that being jealous for so many years brought, but I finally found that peace the verse talks about.
I hope this encourages you to find peace in God’s plan for you life! God bless y’all and have a wonderful week!